Hmm.
There’s a lot more love left in this heart that belongs to you.
Jeff, I know I just met you literally like yesterday, but in such a short amount of time I have gotten to see how you are, what you feel, and how you think. I can heavily relate to you because whenever I read your posts, it’s like I’m looking in a mirror. True, I may be a girl. But it doesn’t change the fact that our minds are alike. I’m pretty lonely, like you are. I’ve always been negative and pessimistic. I believe the friends I have are merely casual acquaintances, and I haven’t found a guy that really showed me he cared for me. But, I just want you to know that that void you have in yourself and your life, is not permanent. There are some people that care about you. And even though I hardly know you, you may not believe it but I care about you. I see the hurt in your eyes and through your words. Yeah, you might think this is complete bullshit, because I’m sure you would, but it’s not. It’s no doubt that I don’t know everything about you, but the little things that I’ve noticed are the things that really matter, because it’s become a part of you and that’s how I can tell. I don’t know, you probably think I’m freaking weird right now, but what can I say? I’m straight up. But more than that, I’m just really deep and open-minded. I’m here for you if you ever want to talk about anything at all, because I know sometimes it’s easier to let it out to someone who doesn’t know you that well, so just keep in mind that you can always go to me. Okay!? :)
By the way, I see no reason why the person who has your heart does not return their love. You see how many girls hit on you when you were on live? And I bet there are tons of girls who do that in person as well. You know it, you’re just denying it. And you talk about nobody wanting you, and nobody loving you. Bullshit! lol. Honestly, in my eyes, I see a pretty fucking great guy. It’s a shame that person you love doesn’t see it. That’s what I call ignorance, and that’s what I fucking hate in people. Sure, you can be pretty graphic, as I stated before. And sure, you can take things over the top sometimes. But your personality pulls people in, definitely pulled me in. That’s why I stayed up til 3 am watching your lame ass live. haha. It just makes me really angry when people don’t see how great someone is. I used to say all the good guys are taken, but hey look! You’re not. It’s a shame that person doesn’t see you how I see you. I admit I love your personality, cause that’s pretty much what matters in that thing we call love. You talk about how you’re really lost and feel like you’re in a shithole and nobody loves you, but somewhere in there I know you still have hope. Everyone has hope. Anyway, I can go on and on about this but I think I’ll stop for now. You’re probably hating me for writing this aren’t you? You’re thinking I’m talking bullshit and that I don’t mean it don’t you? Lol. For reals, this is coming from my heart. Take it or leave it.
Mmmm, if you want to talk to me I have AIM, MSN, Facebook, Myspace and all that jazz. Cause, honestly I’d like to hear from you. Just ask me for thee contacts and suchhh. Or perhaps I’ll ask you for it eventually. I’m a call away! har har har…enough with my lameness. Okays, off I go. Peace, love, and happiness! Byeeeee Jeff! :)
P.S. Yeah I know, I wrote a whole shitload. I just had to tell you what was on my mind.
—sillyxtina
Whoa, i just read this and thanks. Like really. I don’t know what to say but thanks. And yeah, for sure we can talk. Why not? Hopefully i don’t weird you out too much. Lol.
